Your last ex runs up to you, kisses you, & tells you they want you back. You...
lololol. considering the last thing he told me pretty much was that he wished i didn't exist, i don't think i have to worry about that.

What kind of shoes did you wear today?
high heeeeels.

How much money did you spend today?
none.

Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
i am more than okay for the first time in forever.

What were you doing at 3am?
going to sleep.

What are your initials?
AMW

Are you afraid of the dark?
nope.

Have you ever tripped someone?
yess.

Do you miss the way things used to be?
certain things. but right now is pretty good.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
hell yes. in exactly 24 hours from now i will be seeing my boyfriend :3

What was the first drink you had this morning?
apple juice.

Do you think ex's can remain friends?
for the most part. unfortunately the last one doesn't seem to want that at all. whatever.

Do you want someone back in your life?
kind of.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
the only time i got out of the house was to go to church D:

Could you date someone taller than you?
i only date taller, quite frankly. short men are not attractive to me.

Who have you texted today?
oh lord. i sent a mass text saying merry christmas, then kris and laura and holly and jim and matt and twitter and probably other people. i text a lot.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
eh. depends.

Who do you blame for your bad mood today?
i wasn't really IN a bad mood.

Is your mouse the same color as your computer/ laptop?
nope. white laptop, black mouse.

whos birthdays coming up?
uhh holly's is in february?

Your boyfriend/ girlfriend isn't around but their phone is, do you look through it?
no. i trust him, and at any rate his screen is all fucked up, so i wouldn't be able to read anything.

What if they went through yours?
whatever. he can go right ahead.

What will you be doing in the next 2 hours?
talk to people, go to bed.

Is anyone on your top a ex boyfriend/ex girlfriend?
no.

Would you go out with someone right now if they asked right now?
i'm already dating the only person i want.

The last person to hurt you apologizes, do you accept?
that would be my ex-roommate. and no.

The person who hurt you the most calls & needs you, do you go?
no. he can rot in hell.

Do your friends usually come to you with problems?
some of them.

When youre really upset, what do you do?
depends on what i'm upset about.

Are you close with anyone you never expected to be close with?
lol yes.

what ended your last relationship?
uhhh douchebaggery.

If you could marry any famous person, who would it be?
yu phoenix. duh.

Do you have a hard time letting go?
i'm getting better at it.

Does it annoy you when people stay in relationships even though the person is treating them badly?
yeah, although i've done it more than once.

Think back on this survey, did you lie at all?
no.

Did you kiss someone today?
no. :( i have to wait till tomorrow night.

Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female?
male.

Do you feel like anyone is playing mind games with you right now?
nope.

Youre single, why?
i am most definitely not.

Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
i know at least one will. whatever.

When did you last talk to your number 1?
on myspace? earlier today.

Ever dated anyone on your top friends?
nope.

Is your heart broken?
no.

Do you have a bestfriend?
yess.

Is it okay to like someone else when you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
well, i suppose it can't be helped. but i mean, when i'm with a person i tend to not develop crushes on other people.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
lol that happened earlier. sorry, already with the only person i want.

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
yes :3

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
yeah.

Have you ever broken someones heart?
apparently.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/ girlfriend smokes?
i'd prefer if they didn't smoke cigarettes. pot i can handle.

Do you think relationships are hard?
sometimes.

Have you ever tried your hardest, then got disappointed later on?
duh.

Who was last to smack your butt?
lololol. i don't know. hasn't happened in a looong time.

This time last year, do you remember who you liked?
no one in particular, actually.

Do you have a hard time trusting people?
yeah.

Who was your last text message from?
twitter.

Why arent you dating the person you like?
i am :D and it's a bit more than like at this point, frankly...

How many people do you trust 100 percent?
like, three.

Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
no. maybe be punched until his head is dislodged from his ass, but that's about it. i still care about the guy, don't really want him dead.

Did anyone call you pretty recently, to your face?
yep :3

If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
i would willingly just delete one month. if april of this year could just go die quietly in a corner somewhere...

Last night you felt?
okay?

If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?
lol no. they probably are right.

Is it possible to have your heart broken 6 times, by 2 different guys?
i can imagine so.

Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
see april 2009. not even holly knows everything that went down, simply because i can't and won't talk about it.

Do you dislike anyone at this moment in time?
yeah.

Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love?
yes.

Have any memories that you'd like to forget?
yeah...

Are you a morning or night person?
night. definitely. i don't function very well before noon.

Do you hate anyone?
not really. too much energy wasted on people who don't deserve it.

Do you straighten your hair often?
almost daily.

Want someone back in your life?
i'd say i'm rather content with the people i have now.

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
my holly <3 also jim.

Would you change yourself for someone you loved?
i shouldn't have to.

Hows your heart?
quite frankly, the best it's ever been.

Is it worth crying over a guy or a girl?
naw.

Has there been a day this week you just wanted to say "fuck it"?
this is pretty much every day i work longer than a 5 hour shift. lol.

less than 48 hours :)

...sort of forgot that i become a rather cranky lady if i don't get some for a few days. lol. just saying. a woman has needs, you know. can it be saturday already?

Well, so I survived the semester from hell. Good grief. I have never had to deal with so much drama and quite frankly so much bullshit in my entire 21 years.

Grades are gonna suck this semester. Well, at least mostly. I probably have over 100% in greek myth, but otherwise...it was just really hard to focus on classes with everything that went down in the past few months. And it's not all over, just most of it. Let's go over what's done with first.

Jess and Brittany are in the process of moving out. Actually, they were supposed to be out yesterday, and I didn't believe that, and look who was right. They HAVE to be out by tomorrow though, the dorms are closing. Jess hasn't said a damn word to me in almost a month. That's right, the person that I've shared a bedroom with has more or less pretended I don't exist for a month. Well, up until I deleted her off facebook. I didn't see the reason to keep her as a friend on there when we CLEARLY weren't friends anymore in real life. Well, apparently she was mortally offended by this, and though she still wasn't speaking to me, she definitely made sure i didn't feel welcome there at all. Slamming doors in my face, flicking the lights on and off at odd hours of the night when she knew I had to be at work early in the morning, etc. It was just ridiculous and childish. And Brittany, well, she's never really been able to stand on her own. So she supports Jess, of course. What a ridiculous pair. Good fucking riddance to the both of them. Me and Kristy are really looking forward to having the quad to ourselves. It's gonna be so nice and quiet. Imagine, not having to trudge to the library through the snow just to get some peace and quiet for studying. YES.

The other situation...is not gonna go away over christmas break, I don't think. One can hope, and I'm possibly one of the most optimistic people I know, but...I'm skeptical of certain people moving on and letting go of things in a three week period. Even though they've had a whole month. *sigh* (hi, i know you're reading this.) I understand his being upset, I really do, but the way he's reacting is really upsetting. I think at this rate a normal person would have accepted things to a certain degree at least.
This ties in (well, it's directly related actually) to the one really good thing that's come out of this whole shitstorm. I'm seeing Matt now. It's not a secret anymore, everyone and their grandmother is aware that we're together. And you know what? I'm sick of being quiet about it and tiptoeing around the feelings of a person who has clearly never cared about mine. I will say it proudly, I'm fucking HAPPY. The happiest I've been with another person just about ever. And I know he's happy too. And I wish it was simple enough to put it at that and leave it. But things are complicated, because of above reason. But I'm not letting go of something this good simply because someone else is unhappy about it. That'd be damn stupid and I'd regret it forever. I really feel like this could go somewhere.

Another related thing: I don't think I'm going to whimsy as frequently anymore. He wins that battle. It's awkward when we're both there but not speaking, and people are choosing sides, which I never wanted anyone to do...so I'll just stay out of that picture. I can still hang with Chris and Steve and people outside of whimsy. but last week things were just so...awkward. the meeting broke up early as it is but i really wanted to get out of there within five minutes of arriving, and i left with a sour taste in my mouth. i'm opening up my availability to work for fridays. it's just better this way.

I have a lot more to say, but I'm dead tired. Finals and everything wore me out. I'm ready to sleep for a week. Which I can't do because I have work first thing in the morning. Damn. Oh well. Such is life. Maybe I'll post more later on next week or something. I'm actually impressed at how long this wound up being. Jesus. Kudos to anyone who actually read all of this. I'm heading to bed. I have to be at work in under 12 hours.

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fuck retail.